Thursday, January 28, 2010

Friendly post

Just wanted to share something from an email a friend sent me:

Happiness keeps you sweet,
Trials keep you strong,
Sorrows keep you human,
Life keeps you humble,
Success keeps you going,
But only friends keep you glowing.


Thursday, January 21, 2010

Why is it the person who drives you crazy the most, is the one you can't get enuff of! You know the end result is gonna be a bad one but it's some sort of magnetism that keeps you going back for more. This has to be the case for all of these young women I see who go for the "bad boy". These men have nothing to offer you, yet women flock to them like bees to flowers. What is so attractive about someone who can't speak proper english, is disrespectful, and doesn't share the same values as you. It's mind boggling to me......more to come.

Friday, January 15, 2010

It's all About Me

I never realized how much self esteem affects young women. I know this girl who is beautiful, but for some reason finds her self gratification from men or by putting others down. It makes her so unattractive. I'm not perfect in any way but no one has to tell me I look good for me to enjoy being in my own skin. There are features that I absolutely love about me being a heavyset woman and all. I understand the fact that you want you're mate to appreciate what your wearing especially if your trying to dress up for them, but how does one let another's opinion completely defeat them. As for the putting others down that is as low as one can get. Everyone has something wonderful about them. If you get your jollies making others feel bad please stay the hell away from me. You are shallow and need to go experience life. Your standard of attraction is obviously a physical one and you've missed out on some of the best folks around. I'm beginning to ramble so I will stop here but let me say this: If you're constantly sizing folks up and they seem to always come up short maybe you need to apply your scale to yourself! Do you even measure up to the standards you want everyone else too? It's cliche to say try taking a walk in someone else's shoes and if your one of these sub-humans it would be impossible for you to do anyway. My advice to you is keep living life and maybe you can learn a thing or two!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

What's in a Gaze

I curse the day we met
but then our eyes meet
I wish I would have gotten out before it got so bad
but then our eyes meet
I cringe when my mind finds you in memories
but then our eyes meet
My heart races with anger at the sound of your voice
but then our eyes meet
Too many I'm sorries
but then our eyes meet
Too many I dunno's
but then our eyes meet
Jokes turned sour by malice and contempt
but then our eyes meet
The countless insults
but then our eyes meet
the complete disregard of my feelings
but then our eyes meet
Your stuck in your world in which you do nothing wrong
but then our eyes meet
The weight of it all
but then our eyes meet
and all is forgiven because of the warmth and innocence that dwells there.
it's in this gaze that I wish to stay forever.

Secret of the Day

I wonder why I hide my true feelings from you. Maybe it's fear, more likely the fear of rejection. I just don't think you realize the magnitude of your words. When you tell me things like you're not going to be there, I believe this to be fact. Why do you think you get to take this back with a simple I'm sorry. Or by saying I didn't meant it. Maybe you should start saying what you mean while I'm still listening. I don't see my life without you , yet it's becoming unbearable to have you as apart of it. If I struggle with you so on the small things how can we get to the big ones? I await your response with open ears and an open heart. I want to share it all with you, but you have to want it.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Happy 2010!

First off I want to exclaim how happy I am 2009 is over, what a year! I have grown so much and yet I know there is still so much road left to travel. I'm taking the time now though to share something that has been upsetting me lately. I have a twofold problem. The first half is folks are way quick to pass judgement on someone else. Instead of lending a helping hand or ear they write others off because they feel some twisted sense that they are better than that person. It's like my grandma says "sweep around your own front porch before you go worrying about somebody else's". If you find yourself constantly talking about someone I'm talking about you. Put yourself under the same microscope you put others, not so perfect are we? I didn't think so! The second part is I can't stand for some one who is young, able bodied, and of sound mind to complain, complain, complain but yet do nothing to change the situation. I have seen too many people come from so little and do great things. Get up off your lazy ass and make it happen. I know people who are considered poor who are the happiest, healthiest folks I know. They are proud of what they do have and appreciate the important things like love, and family, and the wellness or lack thereof of mankind. I pray that in this new year and the years to come folks can stop being so worried about what they don't have and learn to cherish what they do have. Turn that mirror on your self from time to time!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Happy New Year

So its been for ever since ive posted, yet its close to bed time so I will have to make this one short. The new year opened with a problamatic start. I will include details at a later date.....nothing I cant overcome though right?!? my gramdma had surgeory today I was nervous for her all day. Im happy to report she's well and being demanding as ever. More to come.....