The Future

I don't know if you've seen the latest rendition of Peter Pan. It's not necessary for one to have viewed the movie for you to understand my sentiments.At the end of the movie Peter defeats Captain Hook by repeating the phrase "OLD, ALONE, DONE FOR"! Hook finally gives in and repeats this phrase as confirmation of his defeat. Hook who had just learned how to fly begins to sink rapidly. He then meets his final fate which is to be eaten by an alligator (you know the one the has the ticking belly). Even though Hook and Pan are fairytale creatures Hook's demise mirror's my own. I feel as though I'm sinking rapidly into nothingness. I'm so jealous of youth these days, living their lives care free. No real responsibilities, no worries about finance or finding someone suitable to start a family with. The fact of the matter is as my birthday gets near I'm beginning to feel very old, alone, and done for.

Birthday Blues

So it's less than a month to my birthday and I still don't have any definant plans. This will never do! I have a ton of things I want to do, and hopefully I will get to do at least three of them. I mean I have the whole week off from work PAID! To Do List will follow in a later blog.

Work Life

So I've been transferred to a new department at work. Today was the first day working my new schedule. I've been quoted saying I'm game for whatever at least I still have my job. I'm not so sure if these are my true sentiments......Life can't ever be normal for me just when things are going good......it never fails.....NEVER FAILS

Anticipation

You know how you get that feeling that something major is about to go down. It nags at you constantly, and unless your blessed with clairvoyance or some other gift of foresight, it smacks you right in the heart of things.
I usually blame karma, for the unknown "occurrences" that take place throughout my life. This leads me to the new event that is unfolding in my life. I have so many new decisions to make and no clue where to start. I'm unsure of everything, and terrified of making the wrong decision. I wait in agonizing anticipation.