R.I.P. Joker

So I went to see the latest batman movie. The joker was awesome hands down, he stole the show! Favorite lines were:

1. I'm like a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it. I just do things.

2. Introduce a lil anarchy. Oh and by the way chaos is fair.

3. Look what I did to this city with a few barrels of gasoline and some bullets.

4. and lastly You think I would leave the fight for Gothams soul up to a hand to hand battle with you.....No no no you must always have an ace in the hole.

I can't rave enough about Heath Ledger as the Joker he's no Jack Nicholson but man he was amazing!

Desperate

I'm at a loss. I can't imagine that I'm so out of touch with you that all of these things that I'm feeling are just that.....feelings. You keep telling me it's all in my head, but I know that this is not the case. It's the gamble I took opening up to you. I layed me heart out there. Truly expressed what I felt inside. I thought I could trust you. If you're leaving I wont stand in the way. I just don't want to be the last one to know. I must ask though why put me through all of this. Why put us through all of this to then turn and walk away.....The very thing you were afraid someone would to do you, you're doing to us! Normally I would back out now you know cut my losses before it becomes to much. it's different this time though I've invested so much. No matter what the outcome is there will be great damage, great loss. So I'm going to try things differently this time, actually give this my all. If nothing else I can grow from the expirence. The expirence really.....is that all you are. I'm so desperate for answers to questions only you can answer.

I'm Back With A Story to Tell

My recent abscense can be blamed on myspace(which I never knew was so addicting), live journal, and my ever "juicy" love life.

I have found lately that every relationship I am in changes me. Sometimes in a big way and sometimes in ways so small I don't notice until much later. In my current relationship the M word has come up. You know the one Marriage....yeah thats it. Yet this time I didn't completly reject the ideal of marriage like so many times before. I gave it a timeline, which many find cliche. It's what I need though to decide whats right for me. So at the tender age of twenty five I may be married and relocating states. WoW! I will give more details about the lucky Mister in a blog entry some other time. Maybe even post a pic ooh la la! I've never expirenced a love that isn't cumbersome until now! Even when the clouds come and block out the sun. I want nothing more than to be by his side.....I love the way that feels!